hell of a place

how animal-like and strange
to be not like you, to be
quiet in body
you find yer way so simple
but how to think in that shape
you can't
i know you can't do it
ain't somethin that's possible

diamond rings and the pool table
forty dollars and lack of restraint
turn yourself into an oil fill
my friend
show yerself to me
but don't expect nothin from me
laugh or cry or hit you or do nothin
just starin (which is most like what it'll be)
i am nothin you can share this with
yer gals yer jokes
yer whatyoucallheartbreak
when she gets more drunk
than you meant her to the autumn evenin
in the mild outside
not lookin so perdy to you hurlin
off the balcony

and now yer fulla this somehow
how'd it get to be this
i guess just taste and yer dad
tellin you how to really be a prick

i remember you,
fourteen years old
kissin on the girl i loved then
gettin her in yer room
me standin outside drink in hand
hatin the way i'm hearin you talk
what you wanted she did not want
but you made yer point very well n slurred
like you always do

friend
you gonna be a lawyer?
yer good at fillin up to the eyes
with nonsensical shit and turnin it sensical
and shovelin it all day long in the sun
friend
i do eat that shit for you sometimes
i know that i do
never do i mean to though, yer just
so good at yer practice
but soon as i see the shit in my hands
i just hurl
and then i'm not lookin so good to you
no more
and then the world don't look so simple
no more

friend
i am nothin you can share this with
next time you tell yer jokes
everyone around you'll get good and bored
you've worn it all out
friend
and i'm walkin out yer back door.