how to miss everyone

your storm breath 

is on my shoulder 

i pass through everywhere

alone even with you 

and your ideas of heaven 

i feel bad fighting

so when i'm drunk 

i laugh like shadows on your chin 

now your eyes are wide as the water spills

and they are the only ones who know

the wounds are still itchy 

so i tell them

listen

everything i've ever stolen 

i just stole to smell

every cigarette was accidental

and when i hold my knife tight 

in my pocket

i'm just wishing

i could hold it all 

with such steady thrill

water is running off the table 

onto your toes

you touch the top of my hand

soft on cold knuckles

while i sit stupid and stare at the wall

i just want you to stay

so i can leave 

and come back to you again